After Ralph's initial snarking about Miss English Rose ("Did she mention anything about stopping over for tea or long live the Queen?") he actually brought up a valid point about my impending road trip (everyone needs a Ralph in their life).But, first you need to know some history.
I had no idea I would talk about this when I started the blog, but I never knew I would have a dog either...crazy...this is all so crazy.
Feel free to pour yourself another cup of coffee or shake up a cocktail.
My father left my mother and me when I was a kid. He didn't stick around to see me grow up. Whenever the subject of dear old dad was brought up, my mother had an amazing way of changing the subject. I know she was just trying to protect me while she was alive but it's always been a bit of a mystery to me.
With the close of this auction, I just found out that my uncle (from my father's side- who I've never met) lives in the same town as the seller from eBay...Miss English Rose.
Ralph, of course, went nuts.
"You have to see him. You spent so much time finding out where he lives but you've never taken the first step to meet him. He could answer a lot of your questions you have about your father."
Of course, I'm waffling. I don't know if it's the right time. Maybe this uncle is as big on "family" as my dad was.
The only reason I would want to see him is that it was important to my mom that I have at least one living relative in my life (you know...for that possible kidney transplant. Sorry; laughter is always my back up if it gets too deep)
Anyways- the trip will take place this weekend- so, I can figure it all out in the next couple of days. Geez, my palms are sweaty.
Best of luck!
ReplyDeleteMy dad also left when I was young and I only didn't build a relationship with him until my late 20's and then it was only though e-mail and once in a great while phone calls until he passed last year. But I am so glad that I made contact with him and let my adult side know him. I hope for the best for you and that you find answers that you are looking for.. xo
Humm.....this could be a "God wink" sorta moment. :)
ReplyDeleteAll the best as you weigh out your decision on what is best for you.
Hugs
thanks cc & leigh~ I'm not usually so open about my private life~ I feel like I should pay myself for an hour of therapy :)
ReplyDeleteThere is always a reason for everything, and to make it as simple as, "you won the auction for a reason, and the item just happens to be near your uncle" - is valid enough! You will regret it if you don't at least try to meet him. You opened up for a reason and letting your thoughts and feelings come 'out there' means you are ready.
ReplyDeleteGood luck.....be strong.
Good heavens, I would be a nervous wreck! Always tough decisions, but once you're there you'll know what's right for you.
ReplyDeleteI can understand you being nervous! What a coincidence!
ReplyDeleteWow...there is a lot looming for your next weekend. First, you are fabulous and beautiful. Any one in your family who doesn't have the chance to know you is missing out. I hope all goes well this weekend. Deep breath....
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